My apologies for the long wait for this up-date. A lot has happened since I last touched base with you all. And if you have a few minutes to spare I will be happy to go through everything with you…………
6 week target exceeded!!
Well I lost 21lb in 6 weeks, I was over the moon when I stood on the scales and saw them tip down below 20stone 5lb. (285lb) it felt fantastic!
Clothes are fitting better and I have a little more confidence in my appearance. I went to a party and even bought a new top as a reward.
I am losing weight around my ankles as my shoes slip on and off better.
I feel fitter.
My cholesterol is down to 5.2 (as recommended by Dr’s) I would like to get this down to 3.6. I have no need for my regular asthma inhalers, and my Dr has said I can give it up altogether and just keep my emergency inhaler for, well, emergencies.
but then…
Unfortunately since then I have put back on 3.5 lb but I am trying to get my self back on track!
Feeling Empty!?!
Well over the past few weeks I have been feeling very stressed and had a feeling like I was empty inside, and however much I hate to admit it, I feel back to my old ways of filling that “empty feeling” with food, and not just any food but KFC! That’s all I seem to have eaten just lately, I don’t know if it was just pure laziness or whether I have been avoiding something. Even looking at my hunger chart in my moments of feeling empty I felt really empty. I can’t work out if I was really hungry or if my mind was just telling me I was?? Looking back I think it was the latter. I am trying to find ways of moving my emotional needs from food, but whatever I do when something big happens I really feel that food is the only thing that can satisfy me, even if it is just for 5 minutes. When it’s been a whole day/week or even month of dealing with stress, 5 minutes feels like heaven, until those 5 minutes are up! Then in comes the flood of regret, disappointment and feeling even worse. I keep asking myself why eat it? What will it achieve? But then before I get a chance to answer I have eaten it anyway.
Timing this past month or so has been a complete nightmare. Trying to juggle 2 children under 2 years old, work and trying my hardest to keep our finances from dragging me under. I have not found time to do my work-outs, in fact I found myself on several occasions sitting at my desk in my dressing gown gone 1pm (I would just like to point out at this stage I do work from home, I have not been driven completely insane to the point that I forget to get dressed and ready for work in the mornings- well not yet any way).
The way forward!
OK, as most people on a diet (including myself), I have fallen off the wagon. But I am going to get myself back on. The main thing I need to try and do is work out how I am going to tackle my emotional status. I think if I can get on top of this and stop relying on food, then the rest will fall into place.
2 responses so far ↓
leighmitchell // 26 July, 2007 at 4:41 pm
Please don’t beat yourself up about falling off the wagon, (you’ve enough to contend with without adding guilt about that to your load). The important thing is to get back on. You can do it, and ‘you’re worth it’! When eating healthily, you will feel better, and the good nutrition will give you better physical and psychological equipment to handle the stress, so it’s a virtuous circle.
) xx
It doesn’t matter if you diverge from the path now and again, if the main journey is in the right direction. The important thing is not to give up, and to get back on the right path You Can Do It
Lady Rose // 26 July, 2007 at 5:51 pm
Congrats on your 6 week loss. Take the little gain in stride – we all go through it. Try to find foods that fill you up with out many calories while you work through building new habits, and ways to cope with stress etc.
I know for me I have tons of issues but after over a year of eating healthy I continue to improve and and I don’t beat myself up so much if I slip a little — I have my air popped popcorn plain when the emotional stuff makes is almost impossible to not reach for food. I keep lots of fresh veggies on hand to. It took awhile to figure out which foods trigger cravings (I avoid those), and which one’s I can have and still stay on track.
Health and Happiness, Lady Rose (over 80 lost so far a mere 60ish to go)